hey, I'm bored so i'm writing. today at 8 i had to get up adn go to the fair grounds to do some community service, but instead we got paid so it was ok. we hauled lots of heavy file cabinets and tables and boards and set up some things cuz its coming soon. we also went around the whole perimieter and weeded everything until it was spotless. in the process my toe nail got smashed and fell off, and i got some bad blisters on my hands and thornes in them cuz i hate to wear gardening gloves. then i came home, and realized that my birthday's comin up ( the 7th) and theres nothing to do. i dont even want to do anything, its a stupid day. but my moms dumb and making me go to acting camp a day after and getting some freinds that are probably gone to do something with me. whatever. then this person's always on my mind and i have so many questions that i cant say and wont be answered cuz theyre kinda dumb in a way. but i cant stop thinking about him. i dont know why, i guess i like him alot. uhmm..yeah. i just got back from canada which was boring but outta the house. my moms mad at me for shutting my door which i think is stupid, and now im at my dads which isnt any better. my arm is sore from cutting it a little, and my head is aching from some pills i took and wont make it any better but im kinda hooked. my lifes screwed up but i dont have it as bad as some. i want to find my realy mom and meet her adn my real family.( i am adopted) the mom that i have beats me when she's pissed for no reason and she gets me to hurt myself until it doesnt hurt. whatever. nevermind i cant explain. this is really lame but i had to write about something. oh yeah, my back feels liek theres a million knives stabbing me and my heart also hurts from reciving other ppls gult and misery. i think im gonna go to bed cuz im tired so bye.

-brook.